BE PROUD NOW + fiction by Shaun Gannon
METAZEN has a sister. She’s cute. She’s single. She’s called HOUSEFIRE. She hates your fucking, shitty house. But she has no problem hosting some seriously twisted writers. I follow it and see a great deal of wonderful, demented things. I feel the need to point out one particular writer, a recent piece by one Shaun Gannon, whose personal bio blurb is painfully honest. Shaun is a lone voice in the wild, calling attention to dangling baby teeth. Perhaps we all have metaphorical baby teeth, things we want to pull yet can’t. Like the perfect crime or the ability to pay off $84,000 in debt.
In ‘Be Proud Now’ the character wants to pull something off. The character needed to find ‘the good job’ and let their origin country. I read this with tears in my eyes. Like the character, I travel looking for ‘the good job’. Maybe we all look for ‘the good job’, for money, for a comfortable amount of income to live on, to avoid worrying about things like shelter, food, or a reliable internet connection.
The faithful character wants to improve their life. Nothing they do seems to work. Everything is too hard. Jobs don’t last. People don’t pay. Instead the character sees every effort is for naught. Attempts to improve other people’s lives don’t result in any greater good for our hero. Rather the hero sleeps in buses and cleans in hotel bathrooms.
For a while the character tries to make a living. The character wants to give towels and get paid sweet money for it. Nobody pays. Later the character thinks about violence, using a knife, to achieve their goals. Upon seeing other uses for towels, they try to make money in a myriad number of ways.
By the end it becomes a plea or a threat. The character knows of the evils involved. Unfortunately it seems they cannot be a good person. While the character knows how low this is in society, it appears to be a more moral or better outcome than simply using violence to achieve their means. An illusion is made to the character not wanting to return to this form, showing a certain level of redemption the character wants to achieve.
Shaun Gannon is the chilliest of the bros. Occasionally I want to shout, at the top of my lungs, in a bar full of literary types “I AM SHAUN GANNON”. But that would be a lie. Don’t make me use the voice. I just want to be noticed. Please, let me give away the towels.